Heart-warming Talk

I have been dealing with seniors whom I really respect in my work-living. I can't tell you her exact name, but yes you already known the gender. She's been so amazing with her position and achievements. Sadly she dedicates her time too much for this job. I frequently find her in particular tight circumstances which drive everybody a bit hate her not for once. I'm proud she has the same belief as me and I think she is nice deep inside. Ignoring what people said about her negative, in one night I try to create a very light talk with her by asking "Don't you get bored of this whole thing (read : your job)?" And..

She halted for a while then look me right in the eyes. I was so frightened at that moment wishing like I could really slap my own by saying such silly question. Surprisingly she answered me in a quiet voice, "I'm tired. I'm really tired. If I could leave this job, I will. But I have to fight for my parents. I have one younger brother and he's now having his own family. He's still trying to make his own. My parents were terminated by the crisis."

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By the means of pure honesty, I saw her crying like no one may have chance to see.

"You make me cry, dear."

I straightly replied : "No, that's fine. Everything is just fine with you. You look strong with that tears. And you've been so amazing to your parents. Everything you've been doing will be counted."

Afterward she thanked me for asking.

I rubbed her shoulder softly and tell her to maintain the spirit. Not every woman could have such a chance.

It proves that there's no judgement can't be that powerful to show one's personality. Everybody has dirt in their own shoes and no one could know without a brave in getting closer to see by own eyes. Now I know, I provide more respect and throw the invaluable judgment far far away..

No Escape Could be That Sweet

Tend to bring the completion of my previous post. This is me talking about my second time home-coming on the mid-date of November. I dedicated most of my time with My Giant since Dad was busy with his stuffs so My Giant grabbed the big portion of my whole time home.

I was speechless that at one night he drove me to have a kind of dinner in a fine-dining restaurant which successfully won more of my heart. That was undeniably sweet.

Also we spent time together with Mom and my little brother by hanging out, having lunch and accompanying my little boy in a kid game-zone. Well, we both can't stand to see the basketball ring in that quiet scene then we decided to have a battle and you guys see the result :

That's all were tiring yet so pleasurable. Thank God, I have them all coloring my life :)

Put Your Earphone, Sweets

Some refreshment to your track list by my fave songs :

Forever Love by Gary Barlow

Only Thing I Ever Get For Christmas by Justin Bieber

Pumped Up Kicks by Foster the People

It Will Rain by New F.O Mima feat Travis Graham

The One That Got Away by Katy Perry

Mistletoe by Justin Bieber

Right Here Waiting by Clay Aiken

Search, download, enjoy :)

Miles Away

Hi, guys! How are you doing??

I was overwhelmed by loads concerns of my family and my boyfie by the miles distance. There are days I was worried too much about their conditions by this temporary split.

Maybe seems like I'm exaggerating my words, but yes it is. I'm a girl who's so family-oriented and spend 90% of my life so far in a warmth of family. I never be physically that far with them.

The main part that leads me so is when I imagine if there's something bad happened to them while I'm here. Even no one needs to tell me that I can go back home in just 45 minutes flight, straightly. But this kind of feeling is undeniable. How I used to tell myself that everything will be just fine and all set. Yup, it's about owning the right thought.

Those insecurities popped up as I realize time flies like no one could feel the beautiful part longer and parents getting older. Well, I just can't draw the picture if they were gone. That's never cross my mind even only for a second.

However I learn to make a good paradigm in my brain that every bad thing which could happen may be defeated by the faith. And whenever I remember that comprehension, peace enters into me like I'm being safe and "at home".

Also, this post is dedicated to one of my best girl who feels the same way, please level-up your faith, your dad's gonna be healed very soon! I love you.. <3

According to Your Will

Hello there! Tend to give a good bye to November and warmest greeting to December, I post a testimony of my Christian life.

Well, after my previous failure to attend one of best university in Australia for particular reason, there's another simpler similar thing I also have to accept. It's regarding my department-rolling for my internship. I couldn't get a try to one of last department since the Director asked me to extend my period in Welcome (read : receptionist) instead of being the hotel operator agent (read : Whatever/ Whenever agent). I know it's much better to be a front liner but I crave for knowledge, like seriously. But then again God made my eyes wide open to the day I found this :

When you already at the top of your dreams, but God asks you to go down and let go of it, it doesn't mean He is taking away your happiness. This is merely His way of saying that you're standing on the wrong mountain. He is telling you that : "Child, I have much bigger mountain with a much better view prepared for you."

Afterward I realize how I was ungrateful of it. How about just thinking that the Director gives a full trust to me to work professionally like the other staffs. And then again I thank God for not placing me in a harsh work of Whatever/ Whenever agent in a festive (read : peak) season like nowadays. Plus, less pages for my internship report. I think that's reasonable to be thankful for.

But still, they gave me spare time to learn about Whatever/ Whenever Department for 30 minutes per day just to broaden my knowledge. I get all!

For those who fails on reaching out your dream, take the best part of it and rock it to the core! You gonna find something which is turned out to be very beautiful. Smile :)