The Precious Attendance

"Learning" is one of the activity in life that will never be skipped by anyone. Now the lesson I'd like to share is about life cycle. How people live and then reaching back their home, Heaven..

I don't know how should I thank God sincerely because she (read : my grandma) is now going back home. I still can't believe it happens, I feel like she's around and still there.

In another way, as the pains go away, she's happier now. I realize it will eventually happen, I felt like I was so prepared to face such kind of loss, seeing how painful she was. But when I truly faced the truth, I fell hardly. I consider March in this year doesn't go smoothly, it's a stressful month in life. I broke because I have to force my feeling to focus on the exams, tasks, social life between the bitterness, it was so tiring :(

But after all I believe when God steps in, miracles happen, I'm renewed, I learned!

Time has revealed that she's one of a kind, I love her smile, I love her arms, her smell, her kindness, words and everything! It's amazing how we had never lived in one roof but having such a strong relationship. I miss her cakes, her touch >.<

By this case, I learn one common think about letting go. Everybody shall shower me with lots of heavenly words, but still it hurts, a lot, even words can't describe. Even it goes more than a week, I still can't let her go.

The story about her very last day was so wonderful, how Rosary works and how strangers care. She's lovely, everybody loves her, she's full of blessing, a great mother, adorable grandma of all.

Today, I find a phrase, I find it by my own in the middle of a brief daily prayer :

THE PRECIOUS ATTENDANCE

It's about the unusual attendance. It should not always touched by hand, or even be seen by eyes. It's more to be felt by heart and produces warmth. She's now everywhere, in everybody's hearts. Jesus keeps her forever.. :)

Welcome to the Jungle

Living in the age like this, which a lot to tell. Too much to share and mention. I have been walking through the peak which could make me smile, either make me captured in tears. I should tell my self "Welcome to the jungle", when problems could be very complicated by the adding age. This year, or let's say exactly last year was my roller-coaster when I got to be "too-up" or "too-bottom" facing what was happened through the days. Starting from the broken friendship, sour love-story, family's quarrel, physical distraction, mental abuse, massive pounding-heart until sweet swinging compliments. But after all I am so grateful how either bad and good thing could be very helpful in strengthening me up to now. And still, I believe everything is good, nothing is bad for some reasons.

I also thankful how God been so romantic to always be around and never leaving until I decide to have great dimension of thought to see how things are going.
This year I have to adapt a lot, how I have to get along with some new group of people, how to be a good girlfriend and how to manage my time. This is the fact that how life could not just stop as a mouth said.
To sum up, now everything in its calm line and one thing that surprisingly happened about my friendship that one of them texted me words that very peaceful.
Now, I am changed, I am renewed, I am forgiven. I am saved, once again, as always.
I love it, God. Thank you.