"Learning" is one of the activity in life that will never be skipped by anyone. Now the lesson I'd like to share is about life cycle. How people live and then reaching back their home, Heaven..
I don't know how should I thank God sincerely because she (read : my grandma) is now going back home. I still can't believe it happens, I feel like she's around and still there.
In another way, as the pains go away, she's happier now. I realize it will eventually happen, I felt like I was so prepared to face such kind of loss, seeing how painful she was. But when I truly faced the truth, I fell hardly. I consider March in this year doesn't go smoothly, it's a stressful month in life. I broke because I have to force my feeling to focus on the exams, tasks, social life between the bitterness, it was so tiring :(
But after all I believe when God steps in, miracles happen, I'm renewed, I learned!
Time has revealed that she's one of a kind, I love her smile, I love her arms, her smell, her kindness, words and everything! It's amazing how we had never lived in one roof but having such a strong relationship. I miss her cakes, her touch >.<
By this case, I learn one common think about letting go. Everybody shall shower me with lots of heavenly words, but still it hurts, a lot, even words can't describe. Even it goes more than a week, I still can't let her go.
The story about her very last day was so wonderful, how Rosary works and how strangers care. She's lovely, everybody loves her, she's full of blessing, a great mother, adorable grandma of all.
Today, I find a phrase, I find it by my own in the middle of a brief daily prayer :
THE PRECIOUS ATTENDANCE
It's about the unusual attendance. It should not always touched by hand, or even be seen by eyes. It's more to be felt by heart and produces warmth. She's now everywhere, in everybody's hearts. Jesus keeps her forever.. :)
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